I have felt this feeling before and it wasn't easy. It makes your stomach turn upside down. Your heart hurts so much that you wish you don't feel anything anymore. You want to cry and so you cry. Then you ask yourself if all the tears were worth it.
So many times I've been made like a fool. I was made to believe that eventually things will be okay... but they never did. How can it be when you are so lost and confused you don't know where and how to start?
When men are faced with a challenge, some faced it head on but some chose to take the easy way out. But if there is something I learned about choice, it is that somewhere, somehow it will catch up with you and will make you think if what you did made you happy without hurting others along the way or if it made you feel better about yourself.
I know in time God will reveal his ultimate plan for all of these. Right now I have to retake the test he had for me because I failed the actual part miserably.
But I know He is still proud of me because along the way I tried to keep a good heart.
